Hey guys what's up ?,
First and foremost, I have to thank my friend Randy
for giving me a 3 month subscription. I really appreciate it, man, many many thanks.
I also have to thank everyone who watches me and takes your time to go through my gallery and faving stuff.
I wish I can do more illustrations, as what this gallery was intended to at first, but the sculpting bug bit me, and bit me HARD let me tell you. I am more focused on this side of the art field, as I'm not just fulfilling something I always wanted to, but this is helping me grow artistically in every way possible.
I still have the urge to draw from time to time, but being busy is keeping me at bay, hah. I like being busy, because you are constantly creating, pushing the boundaries that keeps us tied up, overcoming the things we can't do, experimenting new techniques and forms, makes our minds become more focused and flexible, creativity. But too much of it and you'll become blocked, so you'll have to love what you do in order to make the best out it.
Another year is going to say goodbye. I'm constantly thinking " did I do something worthwhile this year ?", "did I achieved what I wanted to?", well, this year particularly, I did, sculpting-wise. I got praised buy top dogs in the industry of figure making, nothing mayor, but a "Awesome job" was enough for me. So I hope to get farther next year.
For those who don't know, I had a huskie that passed away a year and a half ago. I still miss her so much. This is the first time someone or pet dear to me passed away, it's hard, but it's bearable each day that passes, I wish it wasn't like that.
I'm about to have a birthday, I don't like birthdays, it reminds you of how old you are and how little you have achieved in life. Maybe I expect a lot from myself, but sometimes it's just not possible to achieve something so fast. I've seen people a lot younger than me having a successful career or a high salary job or just being successful in life at an early age, and I just think "what the hell am I doing wrong?", but argh, can't keep up with everything, must go at my own pace I think, even if I never get there. I did do something in 2011, but it took me 29 freaking YEARS!... Hate that number...just hate it...
Sorry for the long journal, just throwing some random thoughts to the internet, and to those who read through all this, thanks for reading. I'm a bit emotional this time of the year, December is a month for reflection, and I hate reflection, never gets me anywhere, hah.
See ya' until next journal.